di lang ikaw with lyrics ( juris )

I mean every word...I really want to let go!

Should I Stay?

I tried to endure and stay

But now, can i still bear the pain?

And pretend that everything's okay

For fear of the things he might do.

Should I still stay and keep on?

Am finding the spark we had once

Wondering if there's still left

So, I'll really have reason not to let go.

If only she didn't come to his life

If only he didn't try to betray my love

If only....then, am sure it won't fade

Too bad, he wasted my love.

Yes, he tried and promised he'll be true

Forever me, truly in his heart alone

Forever he and me, for always and ever

Yes, he tried to win me back in his heart.

But can trust be mended?

Same words of promises were once spoken

To the two people he loved

Should I buy it this time?

I Still Can't Believe

Have you ever experienced making friends and not just only friends....i mean your'e like sister and brother relationship thing with a man, who was once a stranger to you?..a stranger who became your idol and created a great admiration towards that man?..Well, I just did. It has been four months now that we're together now and even 'till now I can't still believe that we're this close already. 'Coz who would expect it? He was once a stranger to me and then everyone's been talking about him for being this proficient reporter of this prominent TV station. I only knew him when he become my instructor, cause even he's on TV still I only knew him by name,not until now that...Anyway, when I first saw him personally I didn't like him. He was this very hangin type of guy, very confident, doesn't care what other people thinks and fond of provoking other people. And I hate that, even though I make jokes at him. But not annoying jokes, but those with sense of humor. One thing I like about him, that time is that when I make jokes, he never get angry though. He would even make sabay and make friendly gestures and everyone would start laughing as well.

Well then, so much for that let me start how we became close friends or like brother and sister...hehehe...It was when that time when we started to became real good friends and then he told me to maybe LOG IN on his internet cafe at his place sometimes. So one night I told Ethel to stay overnight at my place so both of us will laag2x there in his house. Then we went there, at first we LOG IN on his cafe but then later on we did not. Coz guess what? We make tag-iya on his laptop...hahha...I so could not believe that I get to bully the man I admire the most and like I have this feeling of "taas ra og pang-lantaw nya" and then now it seems like we're on the same level...hehehe...So who would have thought, the man whom I used to be so distant on him, feel akward on having chats with him and stuff like that. Now, I can make lambing, make punches on him when he annoys me or when he jokingly insults me....He's really a good companion, really.. There was this one time we went home at almost 4am just spending the night talking at Dunkin' Dounut, can you imagine that? He's filled up with words and got a lot of interesting stuffs to talk about, like his life. He's fun to be with and when am at his place, I feel at home. He's very accommodating. One thing I hate about him too, is that he's very wakat. So when I go there I would do a little arranging thing, just a little coz he would complain coz he would find a hard time in looking for his things.

But despite of he's being a cool guy, he's lonesome too. That's one thing Iv'e discovered about his life here. Maybe that's why he likes having us around. Coz sometimes when I don't go there, he would text me and ask what am doing...and then that's it....I really like being with him totally...hmmm...

...See Through...

I am so in love already with myself being a soon to be a journalist, the writer of the people's voices and thoughts. I was not at first believe in myself that I could be and soon be the writer of tomorrow. Why? First of all, reading newspapers bore me. Secondly, I seldom watch news on television. I have little knowledge on the updates of my country as well as the foreign ones. But then, as time passes by, little by little, through the service of my sharped-brainiac instructors that I was somehow able to tell myself that I could soon be one of them. Not to harshly force myself to love and appreciate news items but slowly taking my time to spend on recovering the general events going on around, affecting my world.

What changes my concept of myself with this course is when I get the chance to start having my news item read on air through radio broadcast and was done by yours truly. The first time I did the airing of my news, I was able to say to myself that, "eiy, I can really do this...I can really be, hopefully a booming newscaster not just here but even maybe to foreign land...." Thank's to Power 91, DYGB FM, they gave us the chance to be part of their team and they call us the Power Volunteer. I could see my future there that maybe one day I'll be working there. As I gave the Negrenses the updates, I was so excited, the feeling of having been able to serve them no matter how little it is. No greater feeling could ever be compared the day I did the airing. I see through that station, myself becoming one of the most fearless journalist I could ever be one day and that one day will come sooner. So far, so good, as beginners, as what they say. My classmates are really full of bliss and thankful that we had this opportunity. I thank God so much for all this. Imagine, i get a live broadcast with my own written article on the number one radio station of Dumaguete City? It's really an overwhelming experience that no other greater feeling that I could think of that's better than this. It is not for fame, but it's really the career, I am really into it. Though a lot of people may think that most of us end up in call center agencies, but then I am so hopeful I wouldn't and more chances and opportunities would come.

Live radio broadcasting is still going on. So, I'm signing off now, got a beat to news leg with. Bye!

Almost Lost It

Lovely little lady kitty cat

Around and around it plays

Calling friends, happily share its life

Loneliness often comes, but matters not.

Little stray cat, stranger to kitty

But friendship, they had made

Closer and closer, forever they'll be

'Till they forget of letting go.

Around and around they play

Enjoying one another's company

As they love being together

Unexpected, but it happened.

Never had kitty think that

Little missy steal the stray

Never kitty expects that

Stray cat would try to leave her.

Afraid of losing any of them

Confused as he may be

Of whom to let go

And whom to choose.

Hurt little kitty cat that she

Wanting to be with her love no longer

Realize she'd just been fooled

Stupid missy and damn stray cat.

Though confuse, but stray cat

Giving up kitty, it'll be the dumbest

Trying to give her the apple back

And perhaps be love by kitty even more.

-getz mo ba 'to?..lol!

My Obsession

The day I was born, or I think even when I was still inside the womb of my mother's, I already knew what am really so obsessed with. But then it seems that not every one is really happy of the idea and it's kinda frustrating, really. They were expecting something from me which am already sick of hacking it up, meeting their expectations on me (roar!). I hate to study, and I hate being the freaky genius of the class. All I want with my life is to spend my time on the dance floor and turn the music on and then that's it. I told a lot of my friends even my teachers that if only I could go to school that teaches only about dancing, I would enroll there. I know it's out of the question but I was hoping it is. Though they love watching me swaying my hips, but they are not that exactly into it. I mean they are not that actually accommodating. Dancing is truly my escape from cracked-up brain because of stupid and damn exams and everything. When there are a lot of things in my head and I don't want to think about it, I would listen to music and dance. I would unwind myself through it, aside from going out with friends or going to the office and have chika with the others. In fact, when I study, am not really studying through the whole time. Time to time, I would stand up and do some dance steps and then afterwards go back to studying. It even makes me find memorization easy because of it. I know why they really don't like the idea of spending most my time in dancing because it can turn your head down. They even told me I have to quit on it but because am so stubborn that I could never do that. Well, who could be blame...? Like I said, even when I was still inside of my mom's belly I already started dancing.

I love public speaking as well and that's my compensation to them. I want to talk in front of a crowd though it could be frightening. But once you’re on that stage and speak out the first word, you'll just notice that you're already half way through of your speech and realize that the crowd just gave prestigious applause as you take your bow. All of the nervousness that you once felt behind the stage just peter out and then you just delivered a good speech. When I love it, I still have to study and learn it. It needs brain snapping and concentration, same with dancing. But then, when I love talking it was when I was already born.