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Sunday, June 14, 2009

Love Is On The Air

Can't fight off this feeling anymore. It's really into me now. I have to let go of this but I don't want to. It scares me but it makes my life happy. Scared to get hurt and feel the excruciating pain and yet it saved me from solitude and everything's like a spree. It's very astonishing love is knowing that you had a life, once been locked in a room, brightened up with a single candlelight and then suddenly a rainbow struck into that room through the window. Now it's unlocked, it's already free and willing to take in some light to have more brightness. The acumen of love really drives you crazy in a natural way, no matter how you try to ignore it, it always gets in your way. Love is on the air which I have to breathe in. And I never had a feeling of bafflement or any second thought or something like that. I am even more blissful as I let love burn my life. After 18 years, love is on fashion which is "pret-a-porter". It's very inevitable and ineffable whenever your asked why. I just grin at them and it already explains all of it.

I could remember I told myself once and I even wrote it on my blog,"It's better to stalk someone 'till he gives in". Well, I didn't do that and I never did. He just came out of nowhere and struck me with his arrow. I even also wrote a line," There is really no love story for me. Only fantasies from my dreams". Well, now I guess my fantasies from my train of thoughts or images that passed through my mind in my sleep or even in my reverie came true. The feeling is like a deja vu, you happen to have it for the first time and yet, you seemed like you had it before. Almost everyone browsed my renowned collection of list of men and asked me the very same question,"Why him? So many of them, why him? What is there in him?". I grin at them again and say,"Everything. He's wonderful!". He is not that much. He doesn't live in a lavish lifestyle, either. He is just simply KENT, who fills in the missing part of me.